This blog was started last summer when I was just getting through a bad divorce...and right as I had began a tentative relationship with my Love. My Beau. The man who won my heart, the heart of my sons and even my parents. The man that only GOD could have known I needed right then.
Most people are so against "jumping" right into a new relationship after a breakup. I use to be one of those people. But God changed my heart last summer. I was in a bad place emotionally and physically. I was divorced, yet my ex was stringing me along and using me and just making my life miserable. Our entire marriage had really been a sham. I loved him totally...he used me completely. It was one sided, at best. Then, when I was in my worst hour, in walked a man who said to me, "Your husband is a very lucky man". He didn't know that my husband was now my EX.
A few months down the road, I was starting to feel a little better about things, yet still, had so much to go through and there that man was again. Politely noticing the lack of wedding ring. Politely making sure, and then leaving me the sweetest note with a cute smiley face and his number. Telling me, no rush, no worries, but to let him know when or if I ever wanted to go out and maybe get to know each other.
He thought he'd never hear back from me. He was surprised when he got my text.
And the rest is history.
The first couple of months were amazing. Yet, at the same time, there were some things going on with me that I couldn't share with him that made them miserable. Then, when the "going got tough", and any other man would have been hurt and upset and walked away, he just stood closer, held me tighter and loved me more.
He has been my rock. He has been my angel. He has been a gift from God. He has been something and someone I don't deserve.
And tonight, as I sit here, just a few feet away from him, I am reminded once again why I use to say that he "brewed my tea". Because he is the most selfless and loving individual I've ever met. He can be condescending and arrogant and annoying with his intelligence...lol...but deep down, he never means to be. He's just SOOOO smart!
Tonight, he is sitting here playing with creating (programming) his own computer game. And rather than doing something for himself, he decides to create something that our 3 year old son can play. He is sitting here looking online for graphics and ideas and is, as I type, creating an educational game for our son to play and help him with letter and number recognition.
How cool is that? How amazing is it that not only CAN he do that with little to no effort (because he's that smart and TOTALLY rocks) but that he chooses to spend his time doing something for our son?
I have "felt" for a lot of people in my life. I've been in love. I thought I would shrivel up and die when I realized a few years ago how false my marriage was. Even more pain when I signed those divorce papers. But until this man...until my Beau...my Lover...my Best Friend came along, I never knew what it was like to really be loved in return.
His love in return...his unending concern and care for me and my son...his love in so many ways...it makes him the GREATEST love I will ever humanly have in this lifetime.
And I know...I KNOW that this man was sent to me at "just" the right time by God. He is all of these things, and so much more. And for me, having been with someone so discouraging of my relationship with my family and with God, being with him is a breath of fresh air. He encourages me to work on both. He pushes me. He doesn't let me get lazy. He loves me enough to kick me when I need it and to call me out when I deserve it.
I am so truly blessed with my Beau. He TOTALLY boils my water and brews my tea!